I hate what I have become.
I miss the way things used to be.
Before there was an ounce of hate that was inside of me.
Before i knew what was in store, i was too blind to see that I found the silver lining.
But I guess i wrapped it around my fucking throat.
There is no turning back from here.
I'm alone with no place left to go.
Not a place I can go.
It's taking over my mind.
It's taking over my life.
I spend my days trying to escape this hole that i've made for myself
Let me rot in this hell.
I've become something I truly hate.
Rid me of my place and forget my fucking name.
This is what I never wanted to be.
And the weight of regret will never set me free.
I am facing the consequence.
I'll hate myself till I'm dead.
This is something I cant win.
And I cant wait for this to end.
I can't even count how many times the thought of ending my life has crossed my mind.
Because I'm dead in your eyes.
I've dug my grave with every mistake that i've ever made
Now this weight on my chest, it will never go away.
This is only the beginning of my suffering.
And it wont stop until I'm in the dirt that's under me.
You have no idea what it's like to wake up every day and want to tear out your fucking eyes every time you look at yourself in the mirror.
Please just let this stop. I know what i've done. I'm begging for this to stop. I cant take it anymore.
You worthless, empty shell. How do you live with yourself? Your life amounts to nothing. And there is nobody left for you here
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